It's nice just being Lee and me tonight. He isn't very well bless him, so I'm playing nurse, feeding and watering him and giving him love. He's cute when pitiful lol.
Had a couple of Ann summers parties this weekend and worked at the Wharton in Bedlington on sat night so been a busy bee. Managed to get 2 hot leads for recruits, which is good and did well on my sales and banking. I'm doing up an Ann summers hamper for the cambois friendship groups charity day so ordered them as well. It's going to be packed full of goodies!
People are leaving me alone which is good. Peace and quiet!
Monday 25 July 2011
Saturday 23 July 2011
Never happy
Once again, I get shit because I can't do everything to suit everybody else. In the end, the compromise reached was one I offered but had thrown back in my face. I wasn't even the one being nasty yet I get all the crap til I cry continuously for 3 hours. People aren't happy when I'm happy. I actually don't want anyone at my wedding except the 2 obligatory witnesses because I'm sick of everybody kicking off when things don't suit them. Way to ruin my excitement for my wedding.
So I've decided I'm not visiting with the people who are bringing me down. Every time I get myself happy, people ruin it then go about, happy doing their own thing while I sit and cry in my bed, wondering when the universe will decide I'm allowed to be happy.
Sometimes I wish I'd never been born so I hope they are all happy.
So I've decided I'm not visiting with the people who are bringing me down. Every time I get myself happy, people ruin it then go about, happy doing their own thing while I sit and cry in my bed, wondering when the universe will decide I'm allowed to be happy.
Sometimes I wish I'd never been born so I hope they are all happy.
Thursday 21 July 2011
Success
Ellie's night was a massive success. Thanks to all of you who donated and bought raffle tickets, etc. We made £1225.
The night was fab, went smoothly and although I was rushed off my feet, I had a great night. So much so I didn't get home til 4.30am haha!
Of course, today, I am offended because after everything I do for charity and all the work I put into Saturday night, Lee's gran wants me to nominate Lee for a pride of Northumberland award, for everything he's done for tiny lives. I love the guy more than life itself but to be fair, I even had to give him wrong on the night and give him stuff to do. He is my hero but do people seriously look at me and think I'm the one who does nothing?
Catching up on life is not easy but onwards and upwards with Ann summers and this wedding. Then more charity stuff to be planned!
The night was fab, went smoothly and although I was rushed off my feet, I had a great night. So much so I didn't get home til 4.30am haha!
Of course, today, I am offended because after everything I do for charity and all the work I put into Saturday night, Lee's gran wants me to nominate Lee for a pride of Northumberland award, for everything he's done for tiny lives. I love the guy more than life itself but to be fair, I even had to give him wrong on the night and give him stuff to do. He is my hero but do people seriously look at me and think I'm the one who does nothing?
Catching up on life is not easy but onwards and upwards with Ann summers and this wedding. Then more charity stuff to be planned!
Wednesday 13 July 2011
Creeping up
Can believe how close Ellie's night is and my mind is mental, what with wedding planning, event planning and Ann summers party repping but really, I thrive on all this so stressed as I am, it's all good.
We are upto £90 or so in raffle tickets alone before we sell any on the night plus quite a bit in ticket sales with loads more coming on the night, as well as tombola, human bingo and tiny lives charity box money! I would love to hit the £500 target and I think it is totally do-able.
My costume lights up, how cool is that. My queen of hearts didn't fit so I'm going as a ladybird, woot! I have parcels to wrap and all sorts for the kids yet too and vouchers to pick up.
I've actually started exercising too in order to be slimmed down for the wedding. I'm sore today but did it anyway. My awful lady friend has returned to being clockwork and has stopped panicking me now as it has calmed down a lot. Maybe if we get good genetics results we will consider Ellies sibling relatively soon, though that doesn't mean in the next 3 months by any means!
We are upto £90 or so in raffle tickets alone before we sell any on the night plus quite a bit in ticket sales with loads more coming on the night, as well as tombola, human bingo and tiny lives charity box money! I would love to hit the £500 target and I think it is totally do-able.
My costume lights up, how cool is that. My queen of hearts didn't fit so I'm going as a ladybird, woot! I have parcels to wrap and all sorts for the kids yet too and vouchers to pick up.
I've actually started exercising too in order to be slimmed down for the wedding. I'm sore today but did it anyway. My awful lady friend has returned to being clockwork and has stopped panicking me now as it has calmed down a lot. Maybe if we get good genetics results we will consider Ellies sibling relatively soon, though that doesn't mean in the next 3 months by any means!
Sunday 10 July 2011
Pride and Prejudice
Why can life just not be simple?
So, another family argument ensues because someone doesn't like my choice of partner as they don't think they are supportive enough, don't think I seem happy with them, blah blah blah. When Ellie just died, who rocked me to sleep every night? Lee. Who sat with me when I was in A and E for various things or at maternity assessment? Lee. Who held my hand when I could feel my surgery? Lee. Who cooks, cleans, makes my lunches, tells me I'm alright when I'm anxious? Lee. And yet, when Lee was doing everything to support me, did people turn up and help him with everything he was dealing with? Not much really. His parents played golf etc, with him granted, but Lee lost his baby too and I think my family overlook that. When he was supporting me, they weren't supporting him so really, they have no right to say anything bad about him. If they don't think he is good enough, that's their problem. He was a bit hurt about the two facedness to be honest but it's not worth it as far as I am concerned. If people aren't happy for us, don't come to the wedding, it really is that simple.
Ellie's night is so close, argh! can't wait!
So, another family argument ensues because someone doesn't like my choice of partner as they don't think they are supportive enough, don't think I seem happy with them, blah blah blah. When Ellie just died, who rocked me to sleep every night? Lee. Who sat with me when I was in A and E for various things or at maternity assessment? Lee. Who held my hand when I could feel my surgery? Lee. Who cooks, cleans, makes my lunches, tells me I'm alright when I'm anxious? Lee. And yet, when Lee was doing everything to support me, did people turn up and help him with everything he was dealing with? Not much really. His parents played golf etc, with him granted, but Lee lost his baby too and I think my family overlook that. When he was supporting me, they weren't supporting him so really, they have no right to say anything bad about him. If they don't think he is good enough, that's their problem. He was a bit hurt about the two facedness to be honest but it's not worth it as far as I am concerned. If people aren't happy for us, don't come to the wedding, it really is that simple.
Ellie's night is so close, argh! can't wait!
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