My little dude is growing far too fast *sob*! He is almost 2 months and massive compared to birth but still small with regards to other babies. He is a little smiling machine now and his character is definitely emerging. When that lad can walk, I think I'll be in trouble!
There was a little accident this week. Lee was making a bottle with Theo under one arm and Theo kicked the boiling water over his arm. We've all done the same thing but Lee just got unlucky. He was devastated but these things happen. It happened to me when I was a toddler with tea. The damage was superficial and Theo will be better soon. It hasn't bothered him at all and I keep telling Lee it wasn't his fault at all. If he hadn't got Theo under cold water so quickly, the damage would have been a lot worse.
I've been struggling a little bit with anxiety, mostly over things happening to Theo. The past two weeks have been hard but I'm just trying not to think about it too much. I have horrible thoughts about driving my car off the road and me dying, which I don't care about as long as someone finds my baby. The thought of him crying and nobody coming is horrendous. When he crys in the house, I have to be straight there because I think of him wondering why his parents don't love him enough to come to him. Ellie dying was the worst thing ever but I prepared for it. I knew it was going to happen and how ill she was so I couldn't do anything else but if anything happened to Theo, my life would be over. So, I'm going to try and manage until the 3 month mark and then hopefully, exercise will make me feel better. I feel happy all the time too so I know I'm not depressed, just anxious.
Otherwise, mini guy is gorgeous and doing well. I'm sick of people telling Lee and I what we should and shouldn't do and how to parent though. Our baby is a content happy little guy so we are obviously doing something right. We discuss parenting with each other all the time and I'm sick of people being patronising when we do or don't do things that they suggest. I'm sure if we needed advice we would ask. People seem to think they have the right to dictate you parent their way but I'm just going to ignore it. He's happy, gaining weight, and showing signs of intelligence, is always smart and gets loads of love so I'm thinking Lee and I are pretty good parents without people telling us what to do.
The bear is at my mum's today. 4 hours til he is back woo! :D
