It's nearly here!

Woohoo for Xmas! I still don't feel festive but it will be great anyway, not that Theo will know any different! He just like the lights.

My jubjub has been with my mum today so apart from tidying, I have started my new module, 'Infectious Disease and Public Health'.  It's really intense but mega interesting. It doesn't officially begin until Feb 2nd so hopefully by the time it starts, I will be ahead of the game a fair bit. I'm also working towards a piano exam plus add a 3 month old into the mix so it's important to be organised.

Tomorrow, Theo and I are off to see his Aunty Jess and her kids, who he hasn't yet met and then Monday is Xmas eve! Can't wait for Lee to have a couple of days off next week and just enjoy the week. Even those with their little snidey comments about our parenting and acting as if I have nothing to do with how well our son is turning out can't get me down ('cause I know its a load of shit) because I'm on a high with my two gorgeous men by my side :)!

And the bells were ringing out for Christmas day

Yay, Theo's first Xmas is next week. He has been given presents from loads of people already, they are waiting under the tree! :) I've been singing him lots of Xmas songs which he loves. His little character gets better every day and it's a joy to watch. He loves playing games with his dad and chatting away to him but he's likes my singing better (haha) and when he wants snuggles he looks for his mummy a bit more, especially at night. He loves gallivanting to family's houses too, the little flirt and I can see him really starting to take to his godparents to be, Mel and Marion (don't worry Bev, he will be getting to know you soon and I tell him all about you). The fact that he is already trying to sit up as well is impressive. It will take him a while yet but he's giving it a good go!

Theo is at his Grandad Andy and Grandma Sam's today so I'm just wrapping, tidying, playing piano and chilling out. It is a really horrible day. I'm not feeling so festive this year but I think that will change as he gets bigger and we do more Xmassy things. I know Xmas will be great, we are going to my mum's for dinner and we will be stopping in at my Dad's house as he is home this year. Lee is at work boxing day which isn't great but he gets paid a lot for it so Theo and I will just be going back to my mum's house for the day before we go to my aunty Christine's usual boxing day party. I'm not really planning much for NYE or NY day, they aren't such a big deal to me. I'm sure Lee might go out New Year's day again and I might go for a couple but I just feel like I end up missing out on time with Theo, which is much better than alcohol. I'm bad enough when he goes to family's houses, even though it's nice to have a break and they all want to spend time with him too.

I'm still struggling a bit with Xmas and Ellie not being here but Theo is the best cure for it and we've been talking about her lots while we watch Xmas dvds. I know she will be happy to see how happy he is. For how worried we were about the reality of having a baby, I think Lee and I are doing a pretty good job and hopefully we will get better next year too. It's definately one of my resolutions!

Happy quarter of a year!

In 3 days, Theo will be 12 weeks old! He is just so funny. He loves it when I sing 'Girl on fire' by Alicia Keys but I sing 'Theo on fire' lol. He loves TV (already!), story time (won't stop smiling), being naked, boobs (feeding machine), the swimming pool, his vibrating chair and snuggles. We took him swimming today and he had a lot of fun.

It's getting exciting now we are nearly at our first Xmas with the little man. I find it overwhelming this time last year, I was dreading Xmas. It was OK but I missed Ellie so much. Now, I miss Ellie just as much but Theo has made the world technicolour again and it is exciting. If you had told me last Xmas, by next year you will have a beautiful 3 month old, I would have laughed and said 'no chance'. Theo has already had his first visit to Santa at Daddy's work this week.

Last night, Theo slept nearly all the way through the night, I was panicking! He is still predominantly breastfed and we both love it, though I've struggled with pain, and we've both had thrush on and off which is painful too. I'll be really sad when he doesn't feed from me anymore. He's already showing signs of being really intelligent. Everyone comments on how content and smiley he is and now, how much he chats away. He is a little talking machine haha. Last clinic, he weighed 10lb 11oz so I think he will be over 11lb this Friday when my health visitor comes out. We've even done baby massage. There's loads of stuff  to do with him but we are going to spend a lot more time at home over winter as this whooping cough epidemic is a real worry. His second vaccinations will be on the 12th Dec.

In other news, I passed my first module of my degree in genetics. I have 3 new modules starting Feb, so will get the materials next month. Exciting but a lot of work! And of course, it will be coming up to Ellie's 2nd birthday :(. I can't wait to tell Theo all about her though.

My friend, Emma, who also lost her daughter last year (we grew up together) has just had her rainbow baby girl, Pearl, on Nov 29th :D so happy for her and they are both doing well. It's like a new chapter for both of us.

Anyway, here are some photos of the dude.