Another Xmas come and gone.
This year was obviously very hard. We still had a nice time but it's horrible knowing our bambi should be here and isn't. Both Lee and I got spoiled. We still have Xmas with my dad to go yet as he is on the rigs so that's something to look forward to this weekend.
I had a break from the charity last week so will be back onto my boxes in the next few days. The first batch went off to London which was awesome. I hope the parents love them!
I have mixed feelings about 2012. I don't want it to come as Ellie doesn't exist in that year, except as a memory. It's one step further from her. At the same time, we need a new year with new things to look forward to. Let's hope the only way is up.
I have to have my sigmoidoscopy January 16th. Really scared of having bowel cancer but I more than likely don't I know. Anxiety has been a little worse lately. Fingers crossed that disappears soon!
