It's been a while since I updated. Been, as per, very busy but happy.
First of all, we moved house and now live in Cambois. While nothingis ever perfect, I have never slept as well as I do here since Ellie went to play on the stars and I think that probably has a big impact. Granted, I'm still tired often but not so much. It's a lovely flat and I can't wait to get a Xmas tree for it!
The charity is going well. Our first lot of boxes are virtually done and ready to send. I am going to use different boxes for future deliveries but it's a good start. 4Louis have been a massive help and they are fast becoming good friends.
The bad news is that we are no further forward with genetics, who have no results and need more DNA but can't seem to be bothered to let us know what is going on. I am going to keep ringing until I find out.
Working at boots for a month has been alright, the job is actually OK mostly and the people are really nice. I think it has helped me a lot. I seem to have a lot less anxiety right now and my tablets have been taken down to 10mg which is a big step. I'm coping fairly well right now apart from having little time and being tired.
I'm quite excited for Xmas, mostly because I am spoiling Lee and the rest of my family. Happy times with discount at boots. It is also hard though. It is coming up to the time we found out about Ellie's disease and her first birthday is just around the corner. I miss her so much it hurts, though I try and repress those feelings most days. Not because I don't want to miss her or care, I just don't want to break down in front of people. I am getting her a Tinkerbell snow globe for Xmas. A fairy for my fairy.
Ellie, I love you so much, more every day. I hope you know x
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